"Yes," she affirms softly. "Ted was in the house when it happened. He found the body."

That's the most horrible part of it to Joan. It's one thing to know on a conceptual level that your father was dead and had killed himself. To see it, god, smell it...Joan has been to countless scenes of death, so many murders, so many suicides, and even she never really gets used to it. To be sixteen years old and to find your father's body after he shot himself...it's indescribably horrible.