For Joan

[theodorelasso]

Continued from here.

(warnings: sexytimes. also, panic attacks, brutal violence, attempted murder, discussion of suicide and actual murder... )

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[theodorelasso]

Ted nods in understanding. He knew his own father, quite well, but there's still so much lost time. And he never got to see the man Ted became.

He smiles softly at the part about her half-sister though. "That's nice," he answers. Even if she never got to know him, she did get more family out of it.

He pauses. "Wait, what's your Chinese name?"

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Their situations aren't identical, but they're similar enough that Joan knows that Ted does understand in a way only those who have lost their fathers can. And she's not surprised at all by his reaction to her half-sister. Personal connection is so important to Ted, central to his life and his purpose. Joan thinks about Lin, hoping she's doing okay, and resolves to have lunch with her when she gets back to New York.

Whenever that is.

His question draws a smile. "Jingyi," she tells him, using the Mandarin pronunciation.

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Ted makes a face of concentration and tries to replicate it. "Djyn-yee -- no, hold on, say it again?" he requests. Already it's pretty evident this is something he's pretty bad at, but is trying to get right.

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She chuckles. "Jingyi," she repeats. "Don't worry, it's hard for English speakers to get the pronunciation right." She kisses his cheek. "I love that you're trying, though."

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He tries again, and it's slightly better the second time, even though there's definitely still something Kansas about it. "I dunno why I'm trying, I still can't even say Zoreaux's name right." That name is pretty close though, but again, still kind of Kansas.

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She cups his face and turns it toward her so she can kiss him softly.

"I love that you're trying," she repeats softly, eyes on his.

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Ted softens like putty in her hands, and he smiles gratefully.

"...Bet you can't say 'Theodore' with a Kansas accent," he jokes mildly.

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She smiles and gives it a try. "Theodore." It's close, but the accent is definitely artificial.

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He looks at her seriously for a moment, like he's deeply considering and evaluating it. "...Yeah alright, that's actually pretty close," he admits, then chuckles. "Not that anyone ever calls me Theodore. Well, Sherlock did, when he was summarising me."

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She laughs. "That sounds like Sherlock," she affirms. "Now he would be able to do a Kansas accent. Accents are one of his many talents. Languages, too."

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"Oh, I'd love to hear that," he answers, amused even just at the thought. "I can maybe do some accents when I'm being theatrical and doing voices, but languages, I got no clue."

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"It's not my strong suit, either," she agrees. "I speak some Mandarin...not as much as my mother would like...but Sherlock speaks it almost like a native. I can't think of a language he cant at least read. And there have been many times when he's used accents in a case to lower the guard of people we needed to get past."

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Her mother wants her to speak Mandarin, do good in school, get an impressive job... Ted doesn't know much about Chinese-American culture, but it does seem pretty in line with what he's heard.

"So what would your mother think of you dating me?" he asks curiously.

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Ted is doubtless familiar with the stereotype of the strict Asian parent pushing their kids to overachieve. And...yeah, that's pretty much Joan's experience.

Ted's question surprises Joan a little, and she blinks and then frowns in thought.

"I mean..." She holds up her hands. "She would have no problem with you being white, if that's part of the question. I think she would be a little overwhelmed meeting you, because she's a reserved person and you are way friendlier than she's used to. She will probably disapprove at first, because I don't think she has ever approved of my boyfriends off the bat. But I know that you'd be able to win her over."

She leans forward to kiss him gently.

"Ultimately, though," she says with a smile, "it doesn't change anything. I'd still want to be with you even if my mother hated you. But she wouldn't."

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It was definitely part of the question. A lot of cultures can be very insular. Just like a lot can be racist. Thankfully Ted's family isn't. (A little sheltered, perhaps, but well-meaning.)

He does make a mental note to maybe tone it down a little, if he gets to meet Joan's mom. ...Not that Ted is very good at doing that.

"My mom would love you," Ted says. "So I don't think we need to worry on that front at least."

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Joan knows Asian families that wouldn't be okay with their kids dating a non-Asian, but that's not her family. Her stepdad is white, hence the Watson.

"I would love to meet your mom," she says. "And I would love to introduce you to my mom. And my dad. He would actually probably be really excited to meet you. He's a big sports fan. It's one of the things we bonded over when I was young."

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"Oh yeah?" Ted asks, obviously excited by that. "Oh, you gotta make sure to give me a cheat sheet of his teams beforehand, so I don't accidentally insult them and make him my mortal enemy."

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She grins at his excitement and chuckles. "He's a New Yorker, through and through. Mets and Jets. Big fan of Joe Namath, and perpetually frustrated every year the Jets fail to make it to the playoffs." She takes his hands and squeezes them. "But don't worry too much about offending him. If he disagrees with something you say he will argue with you and enjoy every second."

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Ted does make an 'uh oh' face at the Jets. Yeah he's definitely said some things about them in the past. But then he laughs at the reassurances. Yeah he knows people like that. Ted can be pretty diplomatic, but he'll gladly engage in that kind of banter.

"Alright, good to know. Sounds like a New Yorker," he answers cheerfully.

All this talk of fathers suddenly reminds him though, and he looks at the time.

"Hey, would you mind if I called Henry real quick? I usually call around this time."

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Joan can picture it, Henry Watson and Ted Lasso having an extremely friendly argument about the merits (or lack thereof) of the Jets. She also reminds herself to bring her Jets jersey the next time they spend the night together. She thinks Ted would get a kick out of it.

She lifts her eyebrows and smiles at his question. "Oh, absolutely! Take as much time as you want. Do you need the room?"

She doesn't know if he likes to call him from the living room, and she doesn't want to intrude on his private time with his son.

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"Oh no, I'm just gonna check in, I don't mind you listening in," he answers.

If he was gonna sit around in video call for ages, like he often does, then maybe. But he already knew Joan was gonna stay here late, so he didn't plan for a long conversation.

He picks up the phone, and then pauses. "I wasn't gonna mention you're here though, in case he asks and then tells Michelle. Haven't mentioned you to her yet and I don't want her to find out through him, you know."

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"No, that makes sense," she says. She definitely wouldn't want Ted to have to tell his son or his ex-wife about her until he's ready. Even then she would understand if he wanted to avoid talking about her with Henry. At least until it's necessary for one reason or another.

She sits back to give him a little space.

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Ted is pretty certain he's gonna have to tell them eventually, since he can't imagine Joan leaving his life. But even so, it's a sensitive subject, and Michelle might have complicated feelings, and he wants to be very conscious of introducing Henry to a girlfriend, and how he handles it. So today is definitely not that day.

He smiles at Joan and then calls. After a few moments he smiles happily, as Henry picks up.

"Hey bud! How you doing? ... Oh really? ... No way." He laughs a bit. "Yeah, I'm good. I cooked bierocks today, remember those? ... No, I didn't burn them. I did that one time, kiddo." He turns a little and gives Joan a dramatic eyeroll before he focuses back on the conversation.
"Yeah, I bet. ... Nah, I just wanted to check in, tell you I miss you. ... Yeah, I love you too. ... Tell your mom hi from me? ... Alright then, bye bye."

[formersurgeon]

She watches him talking to his son, and it's the sweetest thing. He's so happy to talk to him, so playful (that eyeroll draws a smile from Joan) and so loving. Joan is already deeply in love with this man, and yet witnessing this makes her heart swell just a little bit more.

"How is he?" she asks when the call is over.

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"He's good, he was just telling me dinosaur facts," Ted answers with a grin. "I'm sure I'll get a full report about that later. Oh, hot tip for talking with kids, make sure you have a favorite dinosaur. Mine's apatosaurus, which is 100% because of Land Before Time."