trashchildren | For Joan

"No one's ever done something like that for me before," he admits quietly. (Or to him.) He means it in a broader sense too, not just making him feel that way sexually, but also emotionally. Which probably explains some of why he got so emotional.

"I figured," she says with a quiet smile, referring to the sexual stuff. Joan's sexual experience is far more extensive and varied than Ted's. There's a part of her that wishes they could be exploring this sort of thing for the first time together. but she knows this is better. She knows what to do so he feels not only good but also safe and cared for.

"I, uh.. wouldn't mind trying more stuff like that," he adds, which makes him blush a little bit again. He leaves the request vague, partly because he's not sure what he would even ask for, and partly to let Joan make her own suggestions. She's clearly a lot more comfortable and familiar with this sort of thing than he is, which makes it a lot less daunting. Not only will she not be embarrassed, but she'll also take the lead so he doesn't have to. That in itself is somewhat unfamiliar to him.

Joan smiles and kisses his head again. "We can do that," she says. There are so many things they can explore, and she's glad Ted is open to experimentation, even if he blushes at the thought. "How did it feel to have the tie around your wrists?" she asks, curious since that was the part that she had been most concerned about.

He's kind of glad he can't actually see her face right now, just feel her comforting touch. It makes talking about it a little easier.

"I, uh.. I liked it," he answers, a bit hesitantly. For a moment it might seem like he's maybe just saying that, or unsure, but no. "I mean, I... really liked it. It felt nice," he adds, smiling. He's just shy about how much he enjoyed that concept. He's not sure he can properly put words to why.

She nods a little to herself at that, eyebrows raised. She hadn't expected him to like it that much, but she can totally work with that.

"How do you think you would feel if I knotted the tie? If you couldn't just pull your hands apart?"

She wants to tease this out a little, to figure out exactly what he likes and where the limits might be.

"Yeah, um, I.. I think I'd like that," he says, smiling, and it's getting a little easier to talk about it, now the subject's been broached. He's still just generally a little resistant to ask for things when it comes to bedroom activities, but if she's asking him for his opinion on stuff, then yeah.

"Or, you know, to the bedposts or something." He says it like it's an off-hand suggestion, but it's also pretty clear that this is not the sort of subject where he would just make off-hand suggestions without having thought about it.

Her smile widens. He's thought about this.

"We can do that too," she says, craning her neck a bit to look at the bedposts of the bed they're in. "Ties might not be long enough. We might want to consider rope."

She says that in part to off-handedly broach the subject of rope, since it strikes her as being a lot more intimidating than silk neckties.

Ted gives a hum and nods in agreement.

Theoretically there shouldn't be a difference, but rope definitely implies a certain forethought and intention, whereas neckties is easier to mentally dismiss as some impulsive playfulness. It's a little intimidating, but not overwhelmingly so.

"I, uh," he starts, licking his lips. "I actually have done some of this before. With Michelle," he shares. "Not often, but.. a few times. Except then I was the one who was.. I dunno, in charge, I guess you'd say."

She'd asked, and of course he'd obliged. She hadn't offered to do it for him, and it hadn't really occurred to him to ask. Not from her.

"I see," she says with a soft smile. It isn't a huge surprise. This sort of play is pretty common, after all. "Did you enjoy being the one in charge?" She could see Ted liking the role, since it would allow him to take care of his lover, much in the same way Joan took care of him.

"Yeah, I guess," he answers, which isn't necessarily a ringing endorsement, thought he didn't mind it. "I don't know, I'm in charge all day at work, it's not like it's exactly novel."

He does very much like taking care of his lover, and he enjoys taking the lead to do so. But he doesn't feel like he needs rope or whatever to do that. He enjoyed it, but mainly because she enjoyed it. Which is enough, but it's not something he would pursue for himself.

Being freed from that responsibility might be what he enjoyed about being tied up in the first place. Especially now, when there's so much going on.

"I'm in charge all the time, too," she points out with a smile, petting his hair. "I get it, though. It's nice to not be in charge sometimes. When you've had to make so many hard decisions, sometimes it's nice to have no decisions at all. To just let go and let someone else make all the decisions."

She's talking in general, but also in particular about the day he's had, and how she had intended to ease it, to give him a chance to rest and be taken care of.

Hearing her describe it like that definitely solidifies why he feels that way. She obviously does get it. And it sounds like it was a pretty intentional decision for her to do this for him.

He sits up a little, propping himself up on an elbow, and looks down at her with a smile. "I love you so much," he says softly, adoringly, and leans down to kiss her.

Ted definitely wants to do something for her too, have a day where she can just relax. Though for right now at least, she might just be enjoying being able to do things for herself.

She wouldn't object to some turnabout at some point, but for the moment her focus is still on Ted and making sure he's okay in the face of all he's had to do today.

She kisses him back, one hand resting in his hair as the other touches his cheek.

"I love you," she responds when their lips part, gazing up at him with equal adoration.

He just looks at her for a bit, appreciating this wonderful woman he loves, who loves him.

"What about you?" he asks, reaching down to rest his hand on her stomach. Not inherently sexual, but just suggestive enough in the context. "Would you like to be taken care of for a bit?"

She smiles as he rests his hand on her stomach, putting her own hand over it gently.

"Only if you want to," she says softly. She would enjoy having him take care of her, but she still wants this moment to be driven by what he wants, what would be fulfilling for him.

"I want to," he affirms, smiling. He knows she means it, that she wouldn't want him to do it out of responsibility, or against his own wishes just because she asked.

Which is why he's trying not to worry about reciprocating exactly what she did, or try to make it mind-blowing or anything like that. He just wants to make sure she feels good, and then they can both cuddle up relaxed and satisfied.

He also just enjoys touching and kissing her in general. He leans down to kiss softly at her neck, just enjoying her warmth and her closeness. Not with any specific purpose or urgency.

She knows he means it, that he wouldn'tsay it just because he felt obligated. She loves how honest their communication is. Joan has been in plenty of relationships where communication was more often or not a guessing game, trying to figure out what the other person actually meant, and speaking in code in return. But with this relationship with Ted, she feels like there's no games. Even when their communication is nonverbal, even when they don't know the right words, they understand each other. It's beautiful.

Joan sighs happily as he kisses her neck. She lets her head tilt back a little and her eyes to drift closed.

He kisses along her jawline, up behind her ear, along her collarbone. Soon he starts gently caressing her upper body as well, just gentle touches along her stomach, her side, her breasts, her arms, her neck, her hipbone. Just gently exploring her body, unhurried, while letting her relax. And this is honestly pretty relaxing to him too, just gently showering her in affection.

He reaches up to stroke her cheek, leaning down give her another soft kiss, before smiling down at her. "You're so gorgeous, you know that?" he says softly, happily. "I love every inch of you."

The way he's touching her is so lovely. It demonstrates the depth of his affection for her that he enjoys giving her these simple touches, exploring and adoring every inch of her.

She leans her cheek into his touch and kisses him back, then opens her eyes to smile up at him at the compliment. "I love you," she murmurs in response, her expression making the truth of those words clear.

She's been asking him questions, and they're sort of still in the middle of it, so he figures now might be a good time for him to ask questions without being too embarrassed.

"So what I did while we were in the shower.." he says, gently caressing her breast. "At the end, where I kept going. How do you like that?"

He is definitely blushing, but at least he managed to ask. He just wants to make sure he doesn't go too far.

He's so cute when he blushes like that, and she smiles fondly.

"It was intense," she says, reaching up to touch his cheek and caress his earlobe. "Absolute torture." Her smile widens and her eyes sparkle. "I wouldn't mind doing it again."

Ted laughs at that, an actual laugh. And he definitely makes a mental note. A little bit of torture in the right circumstances, just fine.

"And... what about when I stop right before?" he asks, maybe even a tiny bit cheekily. Cause that's something she also seems to hate in exactly the right fun way, that just makes it better.

His laugh has Joan laughing as well. It feels so good to laugh with him. At the suggestion she blinks and keeps laughing.

"Wow, you are really intent on torturing me right now, aren't you?" Her grin is playful. "Do you want me to beg?"

"Only if that's something you want to do," he answers, still chuckling a bit too. He does mean that - it might be fun, just as a way to tell he's got her hot and bothered, but it's not something he'd want her to so for his sake.

And this kind of torture is definitely not something he had some initial intention of doing, it's just something he's developed with her over time, just from learning how she responds to things, and wanting to make it as good as possible for her. He just wants to hear her take on it.

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